Wednesday, January 27, 2010

reset

I got a new job! I could only give my old job three days notice, and then I was out of there. I left on great terms, I even brought in cookies on my last day. Sitting down and writing this is actually the first time I've thought about things like my old cubicle, and I've been at my new job for two weeks. I haven't been looking back.

My new job is with the state, and the training investment they put into their new workers is ridiculously great. One week training in the office you'll be working in, five weeks in the classroom, eight more weeks of training in the office, and then another week in the classroom. Fifteen weeks of learning how to do a very complex job. I'm loving it.

And remembering some things about myself. For the last 18 months I've been sitting quietly in a corner. Now, back in the classroom, I'm remembering who I am. I answer all the questions. When we work in groups, I grab the paper and take the lead. I'm smart. I don't need to feel sheepish.

I've really been pushing myself to talk to people more, to sit down with people at lunch and breaks, to be less self-conscious and just put myself out there more. And it hasn't been that hard, because I'm back in an environment where I feel confident. We'll see how that carries over when I go back to the office, but for now I feel like someone's pushed a reset button and given me myself back.